New Stage

Well, people always say "you wont be understood, unless you have become at once.." For me, this statement is true enough to be understood now. When you are young, mentality tend to be you and yourself. But when you have "upgraded" yourself to the parents level, there is not longer you and yourself but is baby and husbands' matter.

During this period of confinement, I realize even though you have tried your best to do something , in the end of the day everything just an unknown. You cant really predict what will be the outcome. Sometimes it really made me upset and demotivated. But once I look back, I saw my husband and mother-in-law. They are the one who are most struggle for me and the baby day and night. All the sudden, I feel so guilty and so stupid of thinking that I am the pithiest and never think about how lucky I am to have such family.

I really thankful for having you be by my side. To my dearest husband, Happy Birthday and I will love you as always!

等待 vs 期待

Being a mother-to be, both the feeling have not much different. What make the different is, when will be the due date. Counting date after date, week ofter week... Here is it, 8 more weeks, all my long awaiting moment soon will come.

Recalled back 8 months ago when I have discover that I was pregnant, none of us was aware what to do next, but faith brought us together and things change as we work closely side by side. Initially, thinking of having a baby will be an easy task, but it is not. Having serious backache, UTI, bleeding, sleepless nights, emotional (hormone) imbalance , fever & endless medicine supplement from the hospital, it make me really "sick" of it.

As time goes by, when you started able to sense the "movements", everything change. Especially when it come to face the "real" world. It make the different! It seems that, she know what you are talking or doing. When you were sad, it make her sad as well. If you "touch" her gently, she will "note" that by "swimming" around. It was amazing!

Having to carry you for 10 months is difficult, but having you in my life is my greatest achievement ever in my life! You mean everything to us. You completed my dream of having a family, I love you as much as your dad love you! For whatsoever reason is it, you are our precious!

We are waiting & looking forward for your arrival!
~My Baby~

鱼 & 水

鱼对水说：你看不见我的眼泪，因为我在水中。
水对鱼说；我能感觉到你的眼泪，因为你在我心中。
我不是鱼，你也不是水。你能看见我寂寞的眼泪吗？


鱼对水说：我永远不会离开你，因为离开你，我无法生存。
水对鱼说：我知道，可是如果你的心不在呢？
我不是鱼，你也不是水。我离开你是因为我爱你，可是，你的心里有我吗？


鱼对水说：我很寂寞，因为我只能待在水中。
水对鱼说：我知道，因为我的心里装着你的寂寞。
我不是鱼，你也不是水。我寂寞是因为我思念你，可是，远方的你能感受到吗？


鱼对水说：如果没有鱼，那水里还会剩下什么？
水对鱼说：如果没有你，那又怎么会有我？
我不是鱼，你也不是水。没有你的爱，我依然会好好的活，可是，好好的活并不代表我可以把你忘记。


鱼对水说：一辈子不能出去看看外面的世界，是我最大的遗憾。
水对鱼说：一辈子不能打消你的这个念头，是我最大的失败。
我不是鱼，你也不是水。现在的我只想要一个承诺。可是，你负担得起吗？


鱼对水说：在你的一生中，我是第几条鱼？
水对鱼说：你不是在水中的第一条鱼，但却是在我心中的第一条鱼。
我不是鱼，你也不是水。我们都不是彼此生命中的第一个，可是，你知道吗？你却是我第一个想娶的人。


鱼对水说：你相信一见钟情吗？
水对鱼说：当我意识到你是鱼的那一刻，就知道你会游到我的心里。
我不是鱼，你也不是水。我以为我对你的爱不会长久，因为那是一见钟情，可是，我错了，对你的感情越来越深刻了。


鱼对水说：为什么每次都是我问你答？
水对鱼说：因为我喜欢在问答中让你了解我的心。
我不是鱼，你也不是水。为什么你总是让我等待？难道你不知道，等待=失去信心==失望=放弃。


如果我是水，而你是鱼，那该多好！水永远都知道你的想法，因为你在我心里。
但是我不是水，你也不是鱼。你永远都不知道我对你的爱，到底有多认真，多深刻。
因为也许已开始到现在，我根本就不在你的心里。。。

Home

"Home"
DAUGHTRY

I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.

Well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.

The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you.
I've not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love remains true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.

So I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,

Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all,
And then some you don't want.
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all, yeah.

Oh, well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.
I said these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
I'm going home.

changes

Life always about changes. How many of us able to cope with the changes that happened around us? It sound hilarious to me when someone told me that "i'm ready to change" when they themselves do not even know what the change was about.

There was once someone told me that, "change" itself can only occurred when there is a choice there, but seldom people were giving themselves the choice. Who restrict the choice? You? They? Or them? I believe everything that happened always have a cause behind. As long as we, ourselves are not restricted to ourselves, choices will always be there, and changes is just about the time factor.

Change, always the word that make people think. People love and hate him. It make people think in such a way is because it required courage and wisdom to perform the change! Nothing sound as simple as it look. Perhaps somehow, somewhere, someone will tell you that "i'm your change", then you have to consider whether you deserved the change or not!

"Always be prepared, only those who are well prepared will be the winner!"

End of story??Beginning of the fairy tales??

Have you ever wonder, what will be your life if you were unable to make it into the university? I guess, i will be totally bore and having trouble to overcome those obstacles. Peoples always say, if you are able to make some friends during your university's life, they will be your precious and lifetime's friends. I do not know how far this statement is true, but i really believe that, they really are the best thing ever happened to me. We are just like the modern version of "Snow white and the 7 dwarfs". But this time, the snow white will be the prince and the dwarfs will be the 6 princess. hahah...weird!

Is kind a funny when you think about things that happened around us especially in university's life. Those silly things that you only will do in front of your friends. Burning midnight oil together just want to develop the system and programmes. But soon we will be graduated and heading to our future. The only things left will be the memory. Which is the most meaningful part to me. Feel a bit depressed but i think i will soon overcome it. Just do not know whether this is the end of the fairy tales or just the beginning of it!:)

Happiness vs Sadness

All this while I am a day dreamer, I like to dream and dream big! For me, my dream always is my priority, countless of when, where or how. But when the dream comes true, I hesitated. I do not mean to hurt anyone especially you, for me you are a tremendous good friends of mine. Maybe sometimes you did behave in a very sarcastic ways, but I know you did not have the intention of saying that, you were always there being so supportive and kind to everyone.

If the meaning of dream comes true has to exchange with you sadness, I really need to apologize to you. I really have no idea how can it happened. I do not have that intention to hurt you. It is all beyond my control. I really hope for your forgiven.